I went for a scheduled consultation. The consultation is now over and I received snacks. I'm going to go to sleep now.

I told him not to help me, but actually, I like getting help. I actually prefer helping out loud. All I want is for you not to care about me. If you start getting along well with your friends and family, I want to get along well with my family too. I want to learn how to ask for help when I'm having a hard time. That's it. The best news is that I found the right medication for my body and my impulse control became much easier! >< (Even if I went to the hospital or received counseling, I couldn't reduce my impulses... haha)

내가 도와주지 말라고 했지만 사실 전 도움을 받는건 좋아해요. 오히려 대놓고 도와주는걸 더 좋아합니다. 내가 원하는건 그냥 절 신경 안 써주면 좋겠어요. 여러분이 친구들과 가족과 잘 지내기 시작하면 저도 가족들과 잘 지내고 싶어요. 내가 힘들면 도움을 요청하는 단계부터 배우고 싶어요. 그게 다에요. 가장 멋진 소식은 몸에 맞는 약을 찾아서 훨씬 충동 조절이 쉬워졌어요! >< (그동안 병원이나 상담을 받아도 충동 자체는 줄일 수 없었으니깐요.. 하하)

To get straight to the point, the 2024 picoday animation will be in 2025. It's not your fault. I'll fix my fundamental problems with more free time. (And you have to take the test too..)

I originally hated making things difficult for others, and it was difficult to repay them, so I tried to hide and prevent things excessively. (It wasn't that hard.) And I continued to do that because I was used to overcoming things on my own, and even when others helped me with my problems, it came late and I found it difficult to express my gratitude.

I wrote this article to break it down, but it was too exaggerated, caused a lot of misunderstanding, and gave trouble to those around me. So now I think it was a mistake. But I don’t regret writing that because I met good friends and positive thoughts!

The reason I said I was taking a break from Internet activities was because I was using the Internet excessively and because of that, I wasn't preparing for the future. This is a step toward obtaining the qualification exam and quality drawings and animations. I will solve my problems together with my family. (It's not that big, so don't worry.)

The only thing I would like to ask is that you not pay too much attention to my problem. I am satisfied just by being with you, whether you are foolish or happy. I knew that you had feelings and kindness for me, but that is a separate issue. Please don't be afraid to bring up my problems. Don't make me think that writing was a mistake.

I'm just a person with a bit of autism and less social skills. Hihi.

Exams end at the end of August!! Until then, it won't be on my Twitter account. It's because I haven't studied too much in my life. I signed a contract with DD and went on an adventure to study. It's true... If my scores are high,

I know I worry you, but it's better to be with other people than to worry or wait for me. If you worry, it only makes things worse for you. I have my own coping mechanisms and a sense of responsibility. I may seem attractive, but I am not the type of person who loves people in a very unkind and mundane way. Rather, you may be gaslighted. So, for your own sake, don't worry about me too much. I can also respond if there is a problem that I cannot solve. Honestly, I can have fun thinking even when I'm alone!

안녕하세요, 마디미입니다.

본론부터 말 하자면 2024 picoday 애니메이션은 2025년이 됩니다. 여러분 잘못이 아닙니다. 좀 더 여유있는 시간을 가지고 제 근본적인 문제들을 고치겠습니다. (그리고 시험도 처야해요..)

원래 남을 힘들게 하는걸 싫어하고, 그걸 갚아주는게 힘들어서 과도하게 숨기고 예방하는게 있었어요. (그게 그렇게 힘든건 아니였어.) 그리고 혼자 극복하는게 익숙해서 계속 그랬고, 제 문제 때문에 남이 도와줘도 그에 대한 고마움이 늦게 오고 표현이 어렵기 때문이에요.

그걸 타파하기 위해 글을 썼지만 너무 과장적이였고 오해할 거리가 많았고 주변을 힘들게 했어. 그래서 지금은 실수라고 생각해요. 그치만 좋은 친구랑 긍정적인 마음들도 만났고 그것들을 만났기에 그 글을 쓴건 후회하진 않아요!

인터넷 활동을 쉰다고 한건 내가 인터넷을 과도하게 사용하고 그것 때문에 미래를 위한 준비를 안 하고 있어서 쉴려 한거에요. 검정고시랑 질 좋은 그림, 애니메이션을 위한 발걸음이에요. 가족들이랑 같이 제 문제도 해결 할 겁니다. (그렇게 크진 않으니깐 걱정하지 마세요.)

내가 유일하게 부탁하고 싶은건 내 문제에 큰 관심을 안 주면 좋겠어요. 난 너희랑 바보같든 행복하든 같이 있기만 해줘도 만족합니다. 날 위한 마음과 친절도 알았지만 그것과 별개의 문제입니다. 내 문제를 꺼내기 무섭게 하지 말아주세요. 그 글을 실수라고 여기게 하지 마세요.

난 약간의 자폐와 덜 떨어진 사람일을 가진 사람일 뿐이에요. 히히.

8월 말에 시험 끝나요!! 그때까지 내 트위터 계정에 안 들어옵니다. 내가 살면서 공부를 너무 안 해서 그런거에요. 전 공부하러 DD와 계약해서 모험을 갔습니다. 정말이에요... 내 점수가 높으면 좋은 대학에 갈 수 있어요. RT한건 실수입니다.. 네... 사실.. 혼자 쉬고 온다는 말을 착각해서 일부러 들어와서 한겁니다. 이상하게 보이게 해서 죄송합니다..

내가 당신을 걱정하게 한다는 것은 알지만, 걱정하거나 절 기다리는 것보다는 다른 사람들과 함께 있는 것이 더 나아요. 걱정하면 당신만 힘들어집니다. 나는 나만의 대처방식이 있고 책임감도 있어요. 나는 매력적으로 보일지 모르지만 매우 불친절하고 평범한 방식으로 사람들을 사랑하는 사람은 아닙니다. 오히려 가스라이팅을 당할 수도 있습니다. 그러니까 당신을 위해서라면 내 걱정은 너무 하지마세요. 저도 제가 해결 못 할 문제가 있으면 대응 할 수 있어요.

Cyclops has only got one ball!

Alucard got two but very small,

Cassandra has something similar,

And poor weeb Hanzo has no balls at all.

You're the only one who feels your values are the most important

His values can overlap with others, but they can't be the same

That's the reality 

A lot of people only know that you are one of the eight billion people.

But that's why it's beautiful

That's why we can all live.

Don't be disappointed that you are small and vulnerable.

 Almost everyone, not just you, will.

So when you die, you who keep remembering you will disappear.

Then eventually you'll be forgotten.

But if you were alive, there would be one person who remembers you.

The world repeats itself like that and you're one of them. 

After all, everyone's physical values are similar.

But the spirit cannot be similar.

Remember yourself. 

so can breathe here. 

Because you remember you.